Cathal Costello Costello

Share a quick story of the monk in the middle. He was a big part of me having the balls to ordain as a monk. He was really a wild monk early on apparently(from what I was told) but the calmness and genuine metta he had really surprised me. I was around him a lot and got to see how accepting and caring he was yet I noticed his skillful way of not getting attached. I was very unfamiliar with someone who actually had genuine metta, who didn’t want anything from me but was sharing his state of enjoyment of life. I was way to use to ordinary stuff the smile on the outside fumes on the inside and the constant validstion seeking we partake in. I wondered how he was always In a easy going relaxed state despite whoeverr showed up to the wat.

It only became surprising after a couple of months with him, it was the consistency and integrity that slowly that thought creeped up in me. I thought “Wow this is some high level monk” lol but most monks who hit 10+ years are like this at least the ones who put some work in themselves hangout noble ones Its fairly normal to me at this point.

Hanging around those guys I guess hit me hard on a subconscious level or something that no matter how messed up I got especially with all my westerner baggage I can clear that out and enter into the state of wow life is good. I can accept myself as I have been accepted, I was never judged, I was always expecting to be judged but I wasnt. My mind slowly quietened down and it began overly obvious that the judgements I make are not only unnecessary pointless and hurtful but are just built on delusion.

So i share that cos when you do hangout with guys who have done a lot of work within themselves it sort of affects you deep into the bone, marrow hits the marrow. Dhammarato taught me that he had it real good I think, being cared for in the right way can totally change you, waking up to caring for the right things and stop caring about nonsense. I feel almost sorry for those who are stuck around ordinary pissy unhappy people all day, that’s hard, you really have to commit to right effort right there. Its my idea of what a blessing is. Your life can change quickly for the good

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